What are we listening to? Believing? Whatever lie from the past or made up story is circulating in our head? Where does that lead us? NOWHERE! Talk to a friend, a family member or someone safe! Dig deep to find the root of your pain. Usually the lie is louder. But are we coaxing it? Yes, I know it seems too overwhelming at times. But, do you want freedom or not?
Sometimes we just need to sit back in the quiet and find the Truth within. Imagine what you could hear just by listening to the peace that the stillness provides? And filling it with positive.
Here is what the “loudness” feels like to me. This is how my worst enemy creeps in. It’s a trap, every time. It starts with some sort of pain from my past:
A hurt
A memory
A loss
A what-if
A remember-when
A I’ll never have that
Then, not too much longer...into the abyss I sail.
We need to learn the entry point of our pain. Find it. At any cost. Search but don’t live in it. No matter what the battle is going on in your head: you deserve happiness.
Fight against it. It’s a war. I’m boarder line wanting to say it’s a lethal battle for our minds to choose positive or negative thoughts.
We fight negatively against our pain with drugs, alcohol, sex, abuse, crime, more pain, isolation, separation, passive-aggressiveness, and more.
So start fighting for words of hope, promise, safety and joy to keep you from spiraling! You have to fight. I hate that part. It’s a fight and it sucks when you feel completely depleted.
Even if it sounds completely stupid, unlikely, ridiculous or incomprehensible:
Fight for hope and peace!! Even if you don’t believe it can happen.
Here‘s one tiny thing you could do: write positive statements/activities on sticky notes and post them at work, at home, in your purse and in your vehicle.
Whatever you do, stop believing the negative! You’re better than that bully in your head!
I’m gonna lose it
I was standing strong
Finally at peace
No room for negativity
No place for despair
I was happy living within these walls
But by virtue of overwhelming thoughts
I start to spiral downward
I get weak
I get tired
The joy I once held deep within in my heart
Begins to slip away
My once secure house now beginning to shake
At the front door
Emptiness is desperately trying to get in
While Peace seeks departure
Joy runs frantically looking for escape
Pain and Hurt easily find their way in
Through the back door
As soon as they enter
They join Bitterness and Anger
Who are strong and look prepared
Hopelessness slides in through the window
As Truth exits
My house now trembling
Reality no longer holds it up
It can give at any moment
The walls are chipped away by Blame and Rebuke
Sadness finds the key to the door
She joins Emptiness
Together they enter
Now Peace and Joy see their chance of escape
They flee quickly unnoticed
Sadness and Emptiness take over the house
Whatever Joy and Happiness left behind
Are thrown out by Anger as Bitterness turns to Rage
They all await the grand entrance of their most beloved guest
They prepare the house for his arrival
Enjoyment is thrown out with the trash
Smiling faces are wiped off the mirrors by Doubt
Fulfillment is dusted away
Self pity is woken by Humiliation
Loneliness shouts, “Get ready, the time is near!”
They watch as the fence of Vulnerability
Is taken down by Pride
Hurt and Rejection are now free to build an impenetrable wall
They head back in with Resentment
My house is almost ready
As Pain and Hurt fall weak
Rage and Anger pick them up
To carry them rest of the way
Their guest can’t be far now
They call out for Merciless Thoughts
All join hands
They look with anticipation out the window
They clearly see now
They run out to greet
They snatch Avoidance who was waiting on the street
The light from outside is too bright so they
Immediately pick up Fear and run back in
Their guest finally arrives
With door wide open
He still can’t get through
They remove the door
Pull down the support beams
Rip off the roof
Dismantle the foundation
Perfect
Now DEPRESSION can completely rebuild my house
Lindsy Brewer
